Close to tears,
pulling my hair,
blood pounding in my ears,
gasping, can't seem to get air
The longer I wait,
the worse it gets,
can't hesitate,
it's at my fingertips
It's breaking my heart,
I don't understand,
I'm falling apart,
because of a man.
I swore to myself,
never again,
I lied to myself,
'cause I'm here again.
I'm caught,
stuck in between,
it's all for naught,
I'm nobody's queen.
I don't get it,
why do I try?
I always regret it,
how long did I cry?
Hearing one's voice,
brings me to tears,
my first life choice,
killing my fears.
He did all it would take,
helped build me up,
then watched me break,
let me self-destruct.
Listenin
Hearts pounding,
blood singing,
words resounding,
ears ringing.
"I love you"
brightly blushing,
"I love you, too"
warm skin flushing.
Lounging in bed,
on his chest,
I lay my head,
feeling blessed.
He's sleeping now,
but holds me tight,
safe and sound,
I whisper goodnight.
I close my eyes,
finally at peace,
knowing he's mine,
I drift off to sleep.
We sleep softly,
in a gentle embrace,
fearing nothing that only
love can replace.
In his eyes I'm pretty,
to him I gleam,
he sees beauty
through my self-esteem.
In my eyes he's grand,
every pore, line and curve,
I see someone perfect and
all I want in this world.
So, no matter what others sa
Closed eyes,
pounding heart,
I never realized,
they'd restart.
Here they've forced,
into my mind,
but their source,
I can never find.
I never scream,
I never cry,
it's just a dream,
and that is why.
The fear creeps in,
when tender fingers turn to claws,
tearing the skin,
beneath my jaws.
"It's not real!
That won't happen!"
It doesn't change how I feel,
subconsciously while napping.
Blood drips down,
across his chest,
a shattered town,
inside his breast.
One never knows,
what comes after,
when nightmares show,
your personal disasters.
With love comes pain,
with joy comes sorrow,
with skies comes rain,
look toward tomorrow.
My eyes snap
Laughter, we're playing like a pair of pups,
romping, rolling, wriggling,
tussling, tumbling, don't know which way's up,
nipping, pulling, giggling.
Pinned down, squirming, growling,
grinning, baring human fangs,
I look up at him, internally howling,
we stare, unspoken words hang.
Say it. I need him to.
Do I say it first?
Neither know what to do.
If he runs I know it will hurt.
Is this my only chance?
Oh, but what do I do?
I can't let this pass...
Together, rushed, "I love you!"
Pause, silence looms,
we look away, cheeks dark,
the quiet fills the room,
broken by only by our pounding hearts.
I look up at dark brown eyes,
hidden behind bla
I held you close,
I cried with you,
You were what I wanted most,
You crept into my dreams, and I loved it too.
You couldn't take it,
I understood,
thought we could make it,
that ONE year to adulthood.
Apparently I was the only one.
I'm sick of hurting,
you should have just said we were done.
That way my wrists wouldn't be burning.
I need something to stop these tears,
numb my pain,
silence my fears,
but my only solution would cause my loved ones pain.
But I made a promise to stay strong,
stay steady. Stand tall,
even when it seems wrong,
even when I feel worthless and small.
So I'm keeping it, I'm standing
up, not to defend myself, but t
You held me close when I cried,
when I looked up my fears were gone,
now that you're gone, I feel like a part of me has died,
it will never heal, and I can't move on.
Strong and steady, even when you were tired,
loyal and honest even when it was hard,
now because of the pain I'm a bit wired,
and I won't lie, you still have my heart.
I feel like someone stabbed me in the chest,
with a white-hot branding iron and on the wound poured
lemon juice and salt. But I'm trying my damnedest
not to show it and simply act detached and bored.
I want, no need,
you to hold my hand,
to be with me,
but I understand.
I hurt you baby,
and you never deserved
When there is:
Night with out day,
Rhyme with out reason,
A theater with no play,
a world with no seasons.
A wolf with no pack,
land with no sea,
a front with no back,
a hive with no bees.
Loss with no grief,
an archer with no bow,
help with no relief,
is the day my Buck is without his Doe.
Warm breath on my neck,
a voice smooth as silk,
I smile,
his voice is thick...
Chuckling to myself,
I know he has risen from sleep,
I lay silently,
not a peep.
His cheek
comes to rest,
upon my bare shoulder,
my back against his chest.
I bury my face into his curls,
I feel him grin,
his fingers trace patterns
on any exposed skin.
I open my eyes,
and cry,
it was a dream and one day, maybe forever,
he'll have to say good-bye.
"It is safest to focus on the near
not the far.
Focus on what's here,
not what's elsewhere.
For the future changes,
constantly shifting.
Fantasies can be dangerous,
no matter how uplifting."
Clutching to my dreams,
I sobbed,
hoping no one will hear my screams,
crying for the wishes of which I was slowly being robbed.
As my cries die,
my eyes growing cold,
so do I,
and before my time, I am old.
Can you blame the hurt
for lashing out,
for wanting things to be the way they were,
but not crying out?
Afraid to speak up,
terrified of being unheard.
Listen, look up,
a gently twittering bird...
The lark knows no sorrow,
but also no joy.
So, wha
Screaming, thrashing, moaning,
tensing, coiling, groaning.
No, not again, make it stop,
I'm scared, "NO, DON'T- STOP!"
Help me!
somebody...
Whimpering, whining,
sniffling, crying.
"Please, don't go. Stay...
Why did you have to go away?"
Falling, plunging, crashing.
No more screaming, no more thrashing.
A gentle voice, "You were dreaming,
please, stop screaming."
It was a dream?
Then why was it so real?
Curling into an embrace,
beginning to feel safe.
Eyes close slowly, it gets dark...
and once again, the nightmares start.
{~~~Win a little dragon necklace!RESULTS~~~} by AlviaAlcedo, journal
{~~~Win a little dragon necklace!RESULTS~~~}
Here are the lucky persons (:
RESULTS:
Lucky numbers:
765 IgnoTung (https://www.deviantart.com/ignotung) - will receive the little cute dragon necklace for me (:
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+a sketch from me, because I see a journal about my raffle on her page (:
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And big thanks to all my watchers, who answered in this journal! :hug:
I didn't expected, that I will receive so many answers (:
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The French shopkeeper at the local tailors recognized them immediately.
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I was born 11-1-97 in St. Louis, MO, I currently live with my mom and my younger sister. I'm a senior in high school and draw in my free time, often for friends or significant others. I specialize in dragons, wolves and other large predators. Drawing fangs still stumps me, I can draw the incisors and canines but cuspids, bicuspids, nope. Anyway, I love drawing and hope I don't ever lose interest.
I haven't died! I've just had a lot to deal with, marching band, concert try outs, family hiatuses. Insanity if there ever was an example! I'm working on some new pieces to put up eventually.
I've started drawing anthros, or for the less sofisticated, furries. It's a ton of fun in all honesty. I still draw my fursonas in their original formatting, but using them as the basis for my anthro artwork makes it a bit easier, not to mention that it's helping me draw human positions. So enjoy the update and the tiny running pikachu, I'm going back to my sketchbook.
Love ya'll. X3,
dragonluvr531
So, I've been doing commissions for my friends at school for several months now and I've been considering doing them on here. They'll be hand drawn of course, so if you want the actual sheet of paper you can have it.
If you want a simple shaded piece in pencil it's $5.00-$7.00 depending on the complexity of the design and the number of characters you want.
For a fully colored piece it's $10.00-$15.00 depending on complexity of the colors and of course number of characters.
I WILL do portraits, but don't get mad if your portrait doesn't turn out the way you want.
Anywho, that's pretty much it. Thanks for reading!
~Dragonluvr531